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Back from Work - Pune Room
It was the first day of work after vacation. I am back to life in Pune. The heat here is bearable only because there isnt any sweat, clothes dont stick to you and you feel fresh. I'd still prefer to be in Goa despite the sweat, and despite everything. Nothing like being at home.

Is this what i want? If not, then what do i want?

In other ways Do we want to want what we want?.

Like If i want to build a heat exchanger in record time, is that what i actually want to do? Am i wanting to build a heat exchanger only because someone else (or everyone else) wants to build it in record time. If i want to build it fast just because everyone is doing the same, is that what i want?

do i want to do something just because everyone else is doing the same?

So, do we want to want what we want?

If we dont get something is it because someone else wanted it more? Are successful people better at wanting their success than unsuccessful people? Sucess is getting what you want to get. In that way people who get what they want are successful. Arent lazy people the most sucessful? For want to get out of work and actually doing it?

Is it then that to achieve sucess we have to go after what we really want? Why do we hesitate to want what we want. Is it possible to extract in single piece our own pure desires and wants from those of others when they are mixed so badly? Are the lazy people so sucessful (in theory) only because they have managed to isolate their wants? isolated their wants so much that accept them as their own.

The fan is loosing speed, the room is suddenly silent. There is one other thing that Goa doesnt have, electricity load shedding. Its a long night ahead. Good night.